Mammagram

Today I had a mammogram . I was worried about the pain level as I am still pretty tender after fighting infection in Dec. The scan went well and the tech was very nice, Kevin and I were out of there in less then an hour. I have a bone scan on Thursday and ct in a few weeks .
Its hard not to think of all possible outcomes of these test and part of me goes to that dark place where that monster once was , I refuse to stay in that place too long so I push and redirect my thoughts to a more positive and happy place . Its not always easy to do, I'm trying to get use to the new normal but haven't quite figured out what that is!?
The best thing that works for me is taking one day at a time . I wake up and try to better improve my life on some level .It may be physical or mental or some time its both but I know each small step is a step closer to feeling some sort of new normal that will work for me :) .