The New Normal...After Breast Cancer
On Oct.29th 2011, one month before my 45th bithday I was told I have breast cancer. This is part of my journey . I am writing as a therapeutic tool in my fight . It helps me let go of some emotional stuff and along the way I hope it helps someone else as well .
Tuesday, 30 April 2013
Results can be scary
Tuesday, 5 March 2013
Mammagram
Today I had a mammogram . I was worried about the pain level as I am still pretty tender after fighting infection in Dec. The scan went well and the tech was very nice, Kevin and I were out of there in less then an hour. I have a bone scan on Thursday and ct in a few weeks .
Its hard not to think of all possible outcomes of these test and part of me goes to that dark place where that monster once was , I refuse to stay in that place too long so I push and redirect my thoughts to a more positive and happy place . Its not always easy to do, I'm trying to get use to the new normal but haven't quite figured out what that is!?
The best thing that works for me is taking one day at a time . I wake up and try to better improve my life on some level .It may be physical or mental or some time its both but I know each small step is a step closer to feeling some sort of new normal that will work for me :) .
Sunday, 10 February 2013
Still riding the wave but now it all about getting healthy!!!!!!
To make it quick...Adkins works well but will not be a life style change that will work for me ...I did manage to lose about 20 lb. I then needed more carbs ..I realize its still about a low carb diet but needed to tweak it and add more healthy carbs and have a day in the week to cheat also cut back on portion size... The health plan im working on now is to work on getting strength back in my body, I have to work on walking I have to go to curves I have to do my exercises that work for for my injured side for physiotherapy reasons. I am also trying to quit smoking next I will be trying a nicotine spray..they were sold out at walmart... keep you all posted.
I received my appointments for my mamagram and bone scane the first week of march.....love and health
Sunday, 23 September 2012
Just want to feel normal
I have many things to be greatful for the list is very long and I make a point of thinking about it everyday..Im done treatment well the stuff I needed to go to cc for but Im still feeling not only physical but also mental not normal..I know that everyday is a better one and closer to me heeling in all ways to completly get over cancer...I keep the fight going by staying positive and pushing myself to go out and live life but beleive me its not alway easy.Somedays are hard when you look in the mirror ,this may seem very vain but really its nothing to do with that .Its more to do with looking not normal you have the cancer look.I hate having it after 10 months of fighting sometimes it just would go out of my brain for just one day........
Monday, 6 August 2012
Radiation
Things are going well so far I am over half way done and fatigue has not gotten any worse. I am feeling some aches around affected areas. They give you a cream to put on and I am using it quite liberally.
My hair is starting to grow but its like a new baby's hair . I am sooo longing to have my hair back .
I have been overweight for the past 20 years and put more weight on during this whole treatment between chemo meds, steroids ,and depression I have been watching the scale go up . During chemo I didn't want to deal with it but now I am in a place where I feel I am ready to get my body in shape. I started the Adkins diet (low carb /high protein ) I feel it is a good fit for me and the added protein should help with all the tissue damage. I am also going to be starting a program designed for people going through the cancer process. It will consist of a personal trainer to help with targeted physical therapy. Going through all the treatments for cancer to survive and live longer it just makes sense to me to start treating my body better .Its been a week of very little carbs but |I feel good and not having any major cravings for bread, pasta ,sugar etc.. and for once the scale has gone down ...7 lbs whoo hoo it feels good .
Tuesday, 29 May 2012
Docetaxel..round 1
I've overcome from most of the side effects . I am finding my energy level is getting low. I haven't been writing much as I have been having issues with my right wrist .
May 28th , at the cancer centre today to get blood work and trial drug injection .. They have decided to reduce my chemo dose by 15% due to extreme side effects . My blood came back and red blood count is really low , this is the reason I've been tired and headache she suggested to eat some liver lol .
They will continue with chemo tomorrow as my white count is good .
Had treatment today it went well although there was allot of anxiety going in, my heart rate was up .Good job for adivan it calmed me down . On antibiotic for the next week as I started to get infection around picc line site .
One more round to go!!!!!!!! can't wait for this to be over and feel normal again or at least somewhat .
Wednesday, 18 April 2012
Round 3/ Ugh!
having this put in meant my chemo went a lot easier as far as injection and damage to my skin, veins and arms . It will be left in my arm for the duration of my chemo treatments . I can't lift more then 5 lbs and have a nurse come in once a week for dressing change and flushing . It is all worth it in the end .
Treatment day was ok felt some extreme nausea as it was being administered but other then that energy and spirits were up for a few days I suspect the increase in steroids and anti nausea meds have helped .
Day 5 and things are going down hill fast. 2 days of extreme nausea , mouth and throat changes . It feels like razor blades all throughout my tongue and throat . Times like this I feel like giving up but I push myself to get out of bed and ride the wave , as I know once again It will not last forever and it will pass. I had a good idea that this round would be a tough one as its the last dose of the "red stuff" I will have a 4 week break this time . I am at the half way mark !!! 3 more rounds to go and I will be soooo glad when this is all behind me .