Results can be scary

First of all I Quit smoking Yeah ME!!!!! its been about 2 months and I feel great . I had my appointment with oncologist and received the results of scans. The CT scan showed a spot on my lung but it is very small .They will be doing another scan in a few months. I can let my thoughts go all over the place but that is not healthy. I had a few cries and got it out of my system and now its forward on with life!! I have a wedding to look forward to in July and I am focusing on all the planning ...I have also started the Thrive program, had my assessment and they put together an exercise program to suit me. It doesn't seem like a lot to do but I tend to do to much then end up in pain for a week so that is the whole idea of starting slow and building up my fitness level:)))))

Mammagram

Today I had a mammogram . I was worried about the pain level as I am still pretty tender after fighting infection in Dec. The scan went well and the tech was very nice, Kevin and I were out of there in less then an hour. I have a bone scan on Thursday and ct in a few weeks .
Its hard not to think of all possible outcomes of these test and part of me goes to that dark place where that monster once was , I refuse to stay in that place too long so I push and redirect my thoughts to a more positive and happy place . Its not always easy to do, I'm trying to get use to the new normal but haven't quite figured out what that is!?
The best thing that works for me is taking one day at a time . I wake up and try to better improve my life on some level .It may be physical or mental or some time its both but I know each small step is a step closer to feeling some sort of new normal that will work for me :) .

Still riding the wave but now it all about getting healthy!!!!!!

To make it quick...Adkins works well but will not be a life style change that will work for me ...I did manage to lose about 20 lb. I then needed more carbs ..I realize its still about a low carb diet but needed to tweak it and add more healthy carbs and have a day in the week to cheat also cut back on portion size...  The health plan im working on now is to work on getting strength  back in my body, I have to work on walking I have to go to curves I have to do my exercises that work for for my injured side  for physiotherapy reasons. I am also trying to quit smoking next I will be trying a nicotine spray..they were sold out at walmart... keep you all posted.
I received my appointments for my mamagram and bone scane the first week of march.....love and health