It was a hard week . I felt a sadness deep inside . The tears would just seem to fall without warning and hard to control . I am not used to not being able to control my emotions .
I would try to analyze why I was feeling so sad, trying to pinpoint the the exact cause . Was it because Kevin wasn't here ? Was it the fact that I was dealing with the fact that I had to face the journey of being sick and debilitated . Wondering still how long will cancer be in control of my body . I suppose it was all of the above .
On a positive note the week ended very well . I hosted a girls night at the house on Friday night . A wonderful group of ladies arrived we had appies and martinis . We shared allot of laughs and a few tears , at one point they all gathered around me in a group hug and said a special prayer of healing . I am not much into religion but it felt good to feel the positive energy from all these beautiful ladies .
Kevin came home Saturday afternoon and I felt an inner peace inside the moment I seen his smile coming down the stairs at the airport . The connection we have just gives me a feeling of well being and I know I will be ok .
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